Been born in 1971.

Had a rough magical childhood and rough turmoiled youth.
Smoked my first splif in 1988, whence i had some mystical and spiritual experiences.
So  i looked for a creative expression for my experiences and started to learn the guitar.
After my first educations, i visited the Americas.
While i was in Mexico, i went to Huautla de Jimenez and was led to a Mazatek Holy-Mushroom curandera.
After a Holy-Mushroom Velada with the curandera, where i saw the devil, i asked her about this demon. She answered me that she don’t know, and that i am a curandero too, because she saw three Angelitos, each on my shoulder and on my head, and so i had to figure it out myself. Later i learned that it was not THE devil, but a person – spirit that turned away from love – light – god and became darkened, and that it could happen to anyone.
So i got interested in the healing arts, but still was drawn to music, which made me been torn between these two arts.
Tripping through central america, i went to the solstice festivities in Chiapas.
During my stay in Chichen-Itza, i had my first healer experience, where i channeled energy into the root chakra of a japanese woman on the pyramids.
I travelled further to Palenque, where i took some Holy Mushrooms, hiked to the Pyramids, was led to encounter god, and after making big mistakes from Carlos Castaneda’s books during wich i fell on my head and injured it, went on my first “psychotic freedom ride”.
Sometimes later, after i returned to Germany and rearranged myself, i asked the Universe and God, after a long ride through heavens and hells, fantastic sights and unbelievable abysses , for advice and got the name slowtemple for a music project.
While listening to the song “Starlight” by Lou Reed and John Cale from the album “Songs For Drella”, i played with the words and put the first letters from the chorus line, (s)tar (l)ight  (o)pen  (w)ide, together to the word slow, asked for an extension to that name and got the answer temple.
So i found my project name “slowtemple”.
Now, the time has come to publish my music, and i hope you like it, because it somehow express the feelings i have from and towards the world.
The music was solely fantasized, in order to elevate the listener!

I also started this blog, to put my flowing ideas, philosophies, thoughts and visions into words, in order to not go crazier, maybe somehow give ideas to others and discuss said ideas!

Greetings in the name of Jah Rastafari (or whatever you like to call her/him/it), everliving, ever clear, ever sure, ever peaceful, all loving, all merciful!

Robi “Childlikesoul” Smrdelj


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Is there a meaning?

Let’s assume there’s realy a meaning behind everything, maybe god exists, maybe god is love and loves us and therfor send his masters to show us his love? But why does god love us? Is love the meaning, and if so, who progammed it into god? And why did the programmer itself cared about that, and the programmer of the programmer etc…..? Is there a meaning behind love as a meaning? Why do we or god actually care? Maybe the only meaning is to smoke mj so that we get careless and realize that nothing’s actually important and life overvalued?

But what’s the rason for that or the meaning behind all that. You subscribe a meaning to some things maybe also love, but you don’t know if there’s a meaning behid that alleged meaning. Nde’ers say the meaning of life and death and all is just pure unconditional love, but why? What’s the rason that it is so?

Is the meaning of all that it has no meaning, is it a yin yang principle and therfor taoism the only realistic philosophy?

Healing / Holy Mushrooms and other entheogens

I advise everybody who has a spirtual, psychical or physical ailment, to take holy mushrooms or other entheogens together with a shaman/healer/witch, that is from the community s/he stems from acknowledged, and known as a healer in that community, in order to heal such ailments. In my opinion entheogens are the best way to heal, as they open up to spiritual worlds and so qualify for spiritual healing, and as spirit is seen as kind of the supervisor of psyches, so they also qualify for psychical healing, and as it is nowadays common knowledge, that mind is over matter also qualify for physical healing.
If you don’t have access to or don’t know where to look for such shamans you could maybe contact a “regular” ( without entheogens) spiritual healer, that you can find through the search function on the site i post below. The site specializes on german, austrian and swiss healers but has also a search function for a world wide search of spiritual healers. Attention site is in german language.

Buddhist Detachement

Are we reincarnated from heavens onto earth, in order to learn detachement from desires such as earthly pleasures and especially heavenly pleasures and sufferinge? Because to learn detachement in heaven from heavenly pleasure is more difficult since there is no actual suffering under the influence of gods unconditional love, but on earth through suffering also from earthly pleasures themselves it has a more easy approach to learn detachment.
Why we have to learn to detache from heavenly pleasures and earhtly pleasures or suffering etc.?
If the highest goal is to unite with god/the all-and-all we must also learn to detache also from heavenly pleasures as well as other means of existance as god is all and in all and therfor also experiencing suffering of its beings, therefore also the material part of the all and all must be experienced and earthly pleasures are connected with suffering so we can detach from heavenly pleasures as well as other means of existanceand unite with god/the all-and-all and unite with the existance of everything so that we don’t cling to special experiences of the all-an-all, which is not only spiritual but also material, but can enjoy the complete full experience of everything at once.

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